"Judas was the ultimate back-stabber."

So I don't have my notebook with me right now, but I have some time now that I think I'll use to write this post.

This week we talked about the Last Supper and the Atonement.

So this is a picture I found online that shows the kind of table that Christ and the Apostles probably sat at during the Last Supper. Because I don't have my notebook, you have been deprived of my glorious stick-figure drawing, but this will suffice.


As you notice, them lying like this makes it much easier for Jesus to wash their feet. But it also shows a lot more. First of all, while we don't know exactly where Jesus was lying, we know John is on one side of him. Assuming Jesus is right-handed, He's probably lying with his left arm under him, so He can eat with his right hand, and so John is probably in front of Him, or on the right. But we also hear about how Jesus gives Judas a sop of bread. Well, when you're lying like that, you really can only reach the people on either side of you. So Judas may have been on Jesus's left, kind of behind Him. So Judas really was the ultimate back-stabber.

Talking about the Atonement was enlightening. Thinking about Abraham's similitude of the Atonement, Abraham was the one with the knife in his hand, about to inflict that pain on Isaac. I had never thought about the fact that in the Atonement, Heavenly Father, who is perfectly just, was the one who had to inflict that punishment on Christ, His Only Beloved. It wasn't like justice just ambushed Jesus. That burden was placed on Him by His Father. And of course, at this moment, Christ is dealing with so much more. He'd never felt guilt before. He'd never felt shame or self-loathing. He hadn't experienced temptation like we do. And at the same time as He's suffering for our sins, He's dealing with our afflictions and temptations and our trials and sicknesses, and He's dealing with all these things that He'd never felt before. And He's doing this for worlds without number. And this was His choice. He asked if there was another, easier way, but when there wasn't, He went through with it, even though it was extremely difficult. I'm not sure what I ever did to deserve this. As if one could ever deserve the Atonement.